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I can feel my hyperfixations slipping away from me and it suuucks arhghghg PLEASE COME BACK I WANT MY HAPPY CHEMICALS

Nah but I started working on schoolwork again and my parents made me go talk to some uni admissions person and ughghg I can feel all the joy and excitement being sucked out of me :(

In theory someone with perfect grades would have their future planned out well and want to try to apply to top schools or whatnot

But nah I genuinely could not care less about my future

I have almost certainly spent more time coding the layout and tagging system for this page then I have in considering my future LMAO

I just want to draw ARGHGH

I just want to go make things!! I want to learn to rig low poly models on blender and animate my ocs. I want learn ren'py. I want to make more vtuber models. I want to keep working on my oc profiles on toyhouse and make a webcomic of them. Or a visual novel. I want to keep coding this site.

I want to go to art school so bad but my portfolio sucks and if I did I would hate art even more

if only i was brave enough to jump

AND ARTFIGHT IS IN LIKE A WEEK

THIS IS A HORRIBLE TIME TO HAVE ALL MY EXCITEMENT LEAVE ME LMAO